Silver Lining

So I really was going to wait until everything sorted itself out but I might as well fill you in. In my previous posts, I had talked about getting into college and what not so this is an update of what’s going on.

DISCLAIMER: The following post is in detail of my transferring process and contains things that you may not care about so read at your own leisure. 

Never in my life has school been my strong suit. When I got to Saddleback, it was a huge wake up call. I had to retake every math class I took but at least I was consistent?? I took statistics in the fall of 2016 and worked my ass off, with false hope provided by my teacher, after thinking I was all good, he decided not to pass me. By 4%. So, with my college apps in process, I had to retake stats. Finally after what seemed like forever, I passed and received my AA this month in 2017! I had applied to a few schools and didn’t get in to one right away. Then there was Cal State Fullerton. This was the school that I had my heart set on. Having several friends there and my boyfriend included, I was excited about this one. They didn’t see I had taken math again so they denied my application. After appealing the denial with proof I was taking it, waiting 9 long weeks, I was told over the phone, “Doesn’t matter anyway because you didn’t get in.” I was so tired of dealing with their admissions department that I had lost all energy to care.

But, then there was Cal Poly Pomona. I received the news that I was admitted and I couldn’t be happier that someone actually wanted me. I got my AA, I was admitted to a really good school and I’ve never been so proud of myself. UNTIL, I got off of work late and checked my email seeing that I had an email from Cal Poly. They had denied my admission for Fall because I “DIDN’T” COMPLETE MY MATH REQUIREMENTS. They had obviously made a mistake and not looked/lost my transcripts somehow seeing as I literally just passed it. I didn’t even want to believe it. I woke up early the next morning and drove over to the school with the intention that this was some kind of practical joke. I was told that I had to appeal all. over. again. Heartbroken, I did so anyway. With my official transcripts being sent over again by mail, I dropped off my appeal paperwork. I spoke with a supervisor and showed her that I already finished everything and they must’ve made a mistake. She was polite but still stood her ground in telling me that even though that may be the case, my spot had been filled and it would be a very small chance that they would let me back in.

I’ve never felt so defeated going through this process. I’ve heard several people tell me that I’m young, there’s no timeline which is totally true. However, after seeing my family so proud and honestly feeling the most proud of myself that I’ve ever felt, I’ve never been so let down. So, for all of those who congratulated me, thank you and save it for whatever comes next.

While I haven’t heard back from my appeal at Cal Poly, this has caused me to really reflect and wonder what other options there are. I have no idea what is next for me, but maybe that’s just how it’s supposed to go. I’m not giving up on school even though the universe is making it very clear to. This is just my own path in life, battling obstacles and eventually, a little bruised and exhausted, I will get there.

There are so many awful things that happen in the world everyday and I’m a strong believer that everything does happen for a reason. However, I don’t believe in comparing my struggles to others. So, if you think, “big deal my life is worse,” I’m sorry. This is my own little struggle at the moment and my own BS of a situation. I am WELL AWARE this is not the end of the world and that I am very young. No, I’m not going to delete the pictures or my other blog post but I’m pissed. I’m tired and yet I know there is a silver lining waiting for me to discover.

XOXO,

Homeless School Girl.