Hello world.
The past couple of weeks toward my blog have been ROUGH. Every time I even thought about posting, I didn’t feel like my captions were good enough, my photos were trendy enough and THEN once I thought all of that, I was up in arms because I couldn’t believe I gave a fuck about things like that. I’m done tailoring myself to what I think instagram is supposed to be, I’m done planning posts and being worried about the flow of my pictures.
To backtrack a bit, I love a good posed photo. I love the aesthetics of some instagrams that I do see and this girl knows how to fucking pose for a picture. I like cute filters and a good insta feed any day of the WEEK. But, I hate the meaning behind it. I don’t get body envy or feel like I’m not as pretty as all of these influencers (I have enough of my own self doubt). BUT I always feel envious of cute photos. I always think to myself that I could never take a photo as cute as that or I could never land a fucking deal to promote big ass brands on my posts. I do think it’s cool that people are able to make an actual income from posing for photos and being hot but its just such a stretch. I see other girls (like myself) trying to even crack the surface, not so much for followers (bc that would be self-deprecating) but regardless, its such a plastic thing to be contributing to.
I don’t mean to say that these influencers themselves are plastic (at least not all I hope) but I want to follow along with people that inspire me, make me laugh, keep it real, tell me when real shit happens and not just showing me their expensive skin care routine. I don’t see a ton of that and I’m not trying to say that it makes me #different and #relatable but that’s what I want to procure on my page. I want relatability, I want to inspire in a different way. I like transparency, consistency (one of my weak points) and overall, not feeling like shit because my feed doesn’t look like a magazine spread.
I want to encourage others to stop with the shit, stop acting like you don’t spend every day shooting your content, making cheeky captions and passing off a super polished photo as “relatable,” because you talk about how the barista at Starbucks got your name spelled wrong.
Here’s to transparency, consistency and a few more F bombs,
Revamping Sunshine.
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