Recently, I’ve felt this overwhelming wave of anxiety that I just don’t have my life together like I should.
I would look around and see that my friends were moving forward in school, progressing in work and giving me the illusion that I wasn’t doing either. My first problem was that I looked around. I don’t know why there is this unspoken blanket of expectations for everyone at this age. You are “supposed” to be well through college and be saving your money but still traveling the world. You’re “supposed” to do a lot of things in life and for me, I’d like to do most of those things but at my own pace. While my friends are progressing, instead of assessing myself, I will be proud. That just goes back to being a good friend and a decent human. However, seeing how harshly I was comparing my point in life toward others was just robbery. I have worked so hard and accomplished a lot in my life and to come this far to compare my life to someone completely different from me? I don’t want to think that way anymore.
There’s been a lot of “self discovery” on this blog and my view points on most topics. I like this one because it’s happening right now. Today. Literally an hour ago I stopped myself from thinking so negatively about my progression and resorted to the only way I know how to deal with such things- by chasing sunshine of course🌞
For those of you following my ever so disheartening college stories, I finally know where I’m going to be (and yes, it is for real this time.) I’ll announce where on my next blog so stay tuned for that! I have a lot of new things coming onto the blog in the next little while and I couldn’t be happier. While I’m not actively posting as much as I used to, I learned that steadily posting better content was an easier way to grow the blog. As always, your feedback & support are greatly appreciated.🌟
So, I encourage you to not only stay in your lane and quit looking around but to also value your own journey. You have your very own deep seeded story that you’ve worked so hard to create, don’t compare it to where you “should” be. Keep living in the moment and taking advantage of every opportunity. I can’t wait to see what lane I end up in. But for now, I’m gonna cruise in the slow lane and take each day as it comes.
XOXO,
The one with the open sunroof 🌞
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