As you can tell by my title, I’m in dire need of something that only exists in an alternate reality. Growing up and realizing that I have awful time management and money management skills has hit me like a ton of bricks lately. When I’m rushing from one job to the next, changing in my car and making sure my makeup is covering my stress well enough, every time I try and convince myself that tomorrow will be different. I’ll leave earlier, I’ll give myself more time and I’ll save all my money. And then the next day happens and I’m right back in the same cycle of stress.
I wish I had a grand answer that could cure my ailment of literally failing at being a responsible adult, but I’m still searching. Everyone I complain to says, “you’re young, you’re supposed to be going through being broke as hell and never having time for anything.” While that may be true, I hate it. I want to be a boring grandma that’s 10 minutes early and puts away money in a savings account every week. Yes, this is about self control and I just need more of it, simply said.
I guess the point of this post is a little life update as well as releasing the tense feeling of trying to be perfect. I’m well aware no one is perfect and that it’s okay not to have your sh** together, however, I should probably start to get it somewhat together or my head might explode.
I thought keeping myself busy while taking this semester off would keep my mind off of school and I was totally right. Going to coach cheer then straight to serve tables and having everything under the sun happen in between has kept me the busiest I’ve been in awhile. And while I see all the people I love experience school and talk about all their classes, I’m almost relieved that I don’t have that on my plate right now. This was the “everything happens for a reason” moment that I’ve been waiting for. I’ve had a lot of people ask “how are you” in that condescending tone with a slight head tilt since my post about college and I’m here to reassure you that I haven’t even had time to think about it, but I’m happy. I’m enjoying what I’m doing for the first time and without taking this semester off, I wouldn’t have found it.
I’m trying not to be so hard on myself about making mistakes whether their financial or time related but I’m having a hard time finding the slow down button on life. The weeks have been FLYING by and every time I feel like I have my feet on the ground again, it’s time to go to work.
XOXO,
I Need A Universal Life Remote.
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