Today, I opened the letter my 16 year old self wrote to me. It was written about 5 years ago and I was finishing up my junior year of high school. Being the “do enough to just get by,” student that I was, I never actually turned my letter into my teacher. One of my friends did though, and she received her letter today. After all these years, I knew where I had put it. And every time I saw it, I would forget more and more what I wrote to myself. After reading the letter, it obviously caused for more reminiscing over my high school years. It’s funny how we change from time to time but for the most part, we remain just the same.
I think the point of the assignment was to really capture what your 16 year old self saw in the world. My letter contained all information about my family, who was working where and how old my dogs were and more sentimental stuff, too. I really realized when I was reading this how fast a 5 year span can be. I always thought when I would read this letter, first of all I would laugh at myself, but mostly that I pictured myself as all grown up. I can’t even begin to explain the wave of emotion I felt after reading this letter. All I wanted was to accept myself for who I am, to find someone who cherishes me for all that I am and to do anything it takes just to make myself happy.
Why I needed a reminder of that I’m not sure. I woke up today thinking okay class then the gym then work- normal day. There are times when we’re lifted from reality and shown what it truly means to be in this life. I take it for granted more times than I’d like to admit and today I was reminded of that. Reading how desperately I wanted someone to love me for all of my flaws and more, and now sitting here having that very thing was a crazy feeling. Not only do I have that but I have found so much more. I can tell from everything I was aspiring for, I really lacked a sense of self love. I hate to remember that about me but it’s all apart of our journey. I can’t say I’m always 100% on it with the self love aspect, however I can’t even believe how far I’ve come since then.
Today, I’m going to write my 26 year old self a letter and maybe continue to do so, who knows. Being reminded how precious life is and how fast it can pass by is an eye opening experience. Today I am so thankful for how far I’ve come and for the amazing people who make my life so much brighter.
XOXO,
The first line is “By now I’m 21 and I hope I have my shit together.”
Also me @ 16:
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