For years I felt like there was this second side to me. There was my normal side, the side I showed everyone and the girl I liked. I was fine with that side of myself. However, when everything got quiet or I had some down time, I felt this urge to release my creative side. I’m not Twain and I’m definitely not anyone crazy talented, but like most people, I needed an outlet to portray that side of myself. I found writing when I was in high school. I mean sure, I wrote in my diary for years but I didn’t find an actual source of function for writing until my years in high school. I would get lost in telling stories and from then on I knew I wanted to write. Granted, the look on people’s faces when I tell them my intentions with my life doesn’t give me the highest hopes. But, if your dreams don’t scare you, they’re not big enough.
I wanted to share why at this point in time, I started Chasing Sunshine. Seriously, the minute I uploaded photos, began writing my first post and even made my blog Instagram– I felt this weight lift off my shoulders. For some God awful reason, I care a lot about what people think of me. Yeah, I know, who doesn’t? But I found myself channeling that into my personal Instagram account and other platforms of myself as well. Sharing this, “bloggy” writer side of me felt like I was asking for attention or trying to be someone that I am not. I’m so thankful for shoving all that aside and beginning this next chapter with myself. I feel in control of my creative side and it feels damn good.
However, that fear I felt of what I posted and what would be said, that struck something in me. Not only do we only post when things are going great- which, don’t get me wrong is a good thing when you’re happy & having a good life, you should be able to flaunt that. On the other hand, my point is that the world doesn’t see the dark parts. The part where you find out you didn’t get into a school you applied for (Me a couple of days ago, keep your fingers crossed for the other two!) or when you have a fight with your family or whatever happens, it doesn’t matter. When someone scrolls through your feed, none of that is present which entitles them to believe you’ve. got. it. all. This is an argument I hear a lot about and agree with it to some extent. Yes, social media is scary as hell and should never be taken advantage of in the way you view yourself. However, If you find yourself scrolling through a model’s feed or some girl sponsored by whoever, think twice and say there’s a lot more to a picture than you think.
Social media is evident. It is here and it’s not going anywhere. When you sit back and question its worth and its purpose, just stick to what you think. Simple as that. If you think you’re not good enough based on someone else’s pictures- you’re wrong. There’s so much to these people we don’t see. I guess that’s why I wanted to start my blog. Not to post rants about social media or anything but to release that hidden intent of what you should be able to post. The world is supposed to be our oyster, and while social media is just a blip (or should be) in our lives, we should think of it just the same.
XOXO,
Keep scrolling, you’re prettier than her.
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